The Villain I've Made

The Villain I’ve Created:

A poem by Julian Totton

When, oh when can I put this chapter of my life to an end?

I’m different from who I was, turned on all my friends

It all started with the bullies, treating me as if I were insane

But looking at them and my rage, I have to ask if im just the same.

I look at them and my demons start to unfold from within

I’ve tried so hard to be good, but evil seems to always win

<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align:center"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:107%;font-family:"TimesNewRoman","serif"">My only hope is not getting lost in my pathetic abyss

<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align:center"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:107%;font-family:"TimesNewRoman","serif"">My pride and arrogance of being an artist, my friends I dismiss

<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align:center"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:107%;font-family:"TimesNewRoman","serif"">It all boiled to when I fought one of the people that bully

<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align:center"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:107%;font-family:"TimesNewRoman","serif"">I liked it, I was good at it, in shock I realized fully,

<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align:center"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:107%;font-family:"TimesNewRoman","serif"">Were these hands meant to create or hurt?

<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align:center"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:107%;font-family:"TimesNewRoman","serif"">After that, I started to treat those around me as dirt

<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align:center"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:107%;font-family:"TimesNewRoman","serif"">For years I’ve wanted fame on my stories, but now I’ve snapped

<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align:center"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:107%;font-family:"TimesNewRoman","serif"">My pride and lust has lead me right into the Devils trap

<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align:center"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:107%;font-family:"TimesNewRoman","serif"">Was it so much to ask for some recognition, fame?!

<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align:center"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:107%;font-family:"TimesNewRoman","serif"">All this work on my stories, and no one knows my name

<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align:center"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:107%;font-family:"TimesNewRoman","serif"">I’m not the same young man, that respectable fellow isn’t here

<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align:center"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:107%;font-family:"TimesNewRoman","serif"">Instead, we have Mr Hyde, and the good natured man has disappeared

<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align:center"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:107%;font-family:"TimesNewRoman","serif"">And all that to blame is on me, I could’ve had it all

<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align:center"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:107%;font-family:"TimesNewRoman","serif"">Have friends and stand proud being tall

<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align:center"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:107%;font-family:"TimesNewRoman","serif"">I wear this selfish god complex demanding respect

<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align:center"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:107%;font-family:"TimesNewRoman","serif"">But really, I’ve become a monster, each day turning more wrecked.

<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align:center"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:107%;font-family:"TimesNewRoman","serif"">What have I become, I’ve played the villain of my own story

<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align:center"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:107%;font-family:"TimesNewRoman","serif"">I could’ve been patient, and soon I may have had my glory

<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align:center"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:107%;font-family:"TimesNewRoman","serif"">If I could have a second chance, to retype my pathetic tale

<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align:center"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:107%;font-family:"TimesNewRoman","serif"">I’d be so very grateful and accept my victories, friends and fails

<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align:center"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:107%;font-family:"TimesNewRoman","serif"">If I could’ve never done this conflict, make a solution

<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align:center"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:107%;font-family:"TimesNewRoman","serif""><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:107%;font-family:"TimesNewRoman","serif"">I would be better, and write my proper resolution